Thanks a lot not to anyone in particular

for telling me I'm tacky whenever I like something big.

OK

I don't need to .. myself too much to feel self pleasure.

Self-Help - Adult Bullying

http://www.lifeafteradultbullying.com/4390/index.html

It basically wants to moderate you with a feeling of being in power.

You stare, pay attention only to you, breathe rhythmically .. then poof!

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I may..

..do the furniture by Sunday, that arrangement.

Undecided

I want to see what happens.  I have to rearrange my room to make a talk show, but that takes money over time.  I also need to own a long, black, buttoned leather jacket.

All I Lost

was the time @ school the teachers just talked to bad kids all day and we got laborious, stupid homework that helped none, stayed up til 1 every day, well diff. times.

So, really..

..I'm too late to be worth anything?  Don't think so.  I fahllowed (followed) my talents all the time.  I was multi-talented at 18 and 19.

The Flower Duet

Sous  le  dôme épais
Under the dome thick

Soo oo le e dawm ay ay pay


Où    le  blanc jasmin
Where the white jasmine

Oo lay blawn jazz mawn

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À  la  rose s’assemble
At the rose together

Ah ah la a rose sawn blah


Sur   la  rive  en fleurs,
About the shore in flowers

Sewr la reev ahn fleyu

Ah'm Jumpin' In!

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" may be on early though filmed so far in advance!

He heh

Hey, guys, at least we get little clips from Ellen more in advance, like when we're up @ 6 PM.

Also, you think she wants us to just watch her m.. or get m.. and not do it ourselves?  Well, I don't really do it, but I think @ it some.  We're supposed to have something to do.

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age 27 | 5'3-5'5 | Chinese, Anglo-Irish, German | future Internet show host + public perfomer

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Waay to Gooo

Ellen is Britney?

"Well, okay."

"You are my sunshine."

My friend left me for saying, "Let the sunshine in."

Feel the BURN BABY

So, make it not painful to us..

Wow

Ellen is wonderful.  I just love how she makes suggestions on her show, but it only took but once....  x(:

Houston, we have a problem.

Ellen, I just wanna cut it short cuz I know in the end you wanna get it all outta me, in a way that doesn't make sense.

Fighting

What is this?  Fun.

Uninvited

Did I do something?  I see Ginny and Ellen USED to be interested in me, WAS nice ONCE.

Leaving Me Alone

I have big dreams.

A Flaw in..

Ellen.  She thinks you just stay on topic and when alone never feel anything more complex nor additional.  Like, just comment on the post online but do more in person I guess.

an Invite

So, why do people like Johnny Depp make themselves so inviting..  }:/

What if }:0

What if I said it was tacky for tweens to want Ellen?

So, I shouldn't have kids until my mom looks old?  Stop making fun of me for my dad not letting me be as good as his little sister and my mom nor himself.. the jealous racist.

Have fun everyone

with your ^com for ta ble^ children.

Labeling (Bullying) Me, All the Time, Too!

I will not be labled too old.  What is my mom too old for me?  You devils.

So what?

I'm too old for Ellen.  I have nothing out of her!!

I'm just talking.  Go get your own dumb, blonde baby and forget me!!

WORTHLESS

Look how worthless, my mom and Ellen fighting back.

Maybe It's Just Me

I don't think she'd hurt a kid.  If she has nothing for me, why do I put up with this?

WAH

NO MORE ELLEN DEGENERES  She films more than 1 day in advance, but it can pop up on YouTube, which makes more than enough sense for anyone but isn't really as fun..  Well, keep it up that way until the wind changes.

Mobile

Mobile Soon

TV

Bah!  (Bye!)

My Goal

was to talk to people, and they aren't talking to me online.

What I Want

I want to be a performer, why stop me?  I do it to meet people.  You can't say I'm just some late starting half Asian.  I know all there is to performing that can be known today!

Too Mature

I'm not too mature to start a career, but I was like a kid when I was around 20.  It's like not picking the RIGHT college major.

Problem

I know you all make people like Ellen feel good instead of me.  I don't even know if what you all practice is right, but what I see you do isn't.

Reason

I'm born from him, a 1950 type father.

Things I Thought on My Walk

Ellen DeGeneres said she has to go through things and be careful in the world, but she blames me.  That might be okay, but it's not really my fault.

I'm tired of serving her highness paying any attention at all to the suggestions my dad is making to make her feel pleasured.

Twitter + Facebook

So, did you realize..

..Ellen acts like she needs attention to get stimulated, like @ her picture for Heads Up, just because.  That's a good thing to noticem but I tend not to recall.

Mobile

Mobile Soon

If you wanna see my parents..

..why don't you e-mail ME?  bc it seems like a similar technicality.

There is 1 thing.

But it's something my mom already does, gauges how often I act critical @ people bothering me..

Sure, you can say, well, you've either been or seem to have been dying your hair for no good reason, have had alcohol when immature, things like that.

Me, MY blog.  8|

The Hard Knock Life

Why can't we get Ellen in trouble for having a hard time?  She gets you in trouble even if you are punishing someone else because it's something you do to pleasure yourself.

For All Eternity 3|

This is serious.

I'd almost rather not talk to Ellen.  It's now a push of a button to say I have to stimulate Ellen DeGeneres for her.  No.. Portia is younger and not a guy.

When I Was Young

My punishment was not knowing what to do.  We'd have people come in and ask us to model and think @ it, stuff like that, to be actors and whatever we want or want to feel!

Question

Why so laborious on younger people??

Problem

So, why is Ellen so picky @ us stimulating her?  It's not that way.  It's fun, though.

YOU are the racist 1.

Wasting My Time

They're playing around my future son won't be all I dreamed.  Well, don't play, get skinky Ginny out and stop telling me to curse.

Wait, what?

I can't believe it.  Is Ellen holding me accountable for "things I didn't even do" in the past and others?

Why I Was Mad

I guess I was just upset @ Ginny, didn't have anything against her at the core.  I just mean the fuss @ her is worthless, the fuss @ the shit I mean.

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Any thoughts of punishing me for failing college during an experiment, trying to use store cards to get what I need but seems like a want, thinking in the experiment I was to call someone the n word, cursing on my blog (since it was at my own family mostly all the bad 1s which are asteriked and bleeped off, .. kicking kids's chairs @ school -

will make me very mad or sad or withdrawn..

Dream

I remember going twice to a place and waiting and I couldn't see this big attractive person, someone long and dressed up like a bird in parachute material feathered up, like my fish.  There was some water slide ride, I think.

I am tempted to delete what I posted last night, but at least you can read it.  Yes, I got mad, but I didn't like curse at Ellen.  I just feel so picked on.  I post what I post, and it carries little magnitude.

Still, why can't I go to school?  That's just crazy to get mad like that.  So, sorry if it offended you or you will do something else..  I need to lie back down, even.

I mean, I mainly was mad because I felt that what I posted before was sorta funned at.  Interesting people on YouTube, but I mean maybe I'm thinking like oh Ellen doesn't care, won't tell you why she does weird stuff like that.. I just wanted to know why.  I know already she doesn't like I went to school to be active and watch her show in between.  That's what I'd want to know before, too.  I thought in a way she didn't like me just watching her show and not doing anything else.  Problem is I have a curfew and am on a pill since.

When things are fine, you keep digging in my past.  You hurt my feelings.  You do weird things like this that don't seem right at the time.

It shouldn't even be related to me going to school.

I think it's just special, like for school kids.  That's what I got at 1st..

Upset?

Everyone seems upset @ Ellen, like all the YouTube comments, maybe the not filming as close to air time.

Well, that's just maybe more for Ellen and less for us, maybe she is more relaxed that way, knows her staff will be alright?  I am worried there is a bad reason, like to punish me or balance something out that didn't have to be so shouldn't be.

Maybe, next year will be different.  She probably will keep the same filming times, though, so maybe it's 2 days, which I don't think this actually is better|more comfortable for her.

Also

I said something on Twitter.. but took it back, was just talking.  No one seems to care @ good people.

Okay

I guess I'll go lie down and fall asleep again.  Wake up for "the show" and other good things.

So, what!

I didn't say anything bad @ Ellen, but I mean it might not be safe.

You weirdos.

I don't have to be fat like my dad.  Why do I have to even tell you he's not skinny!

be cauzz

I don't like that feeling.  I am not close to my parents.. in a way.  My dad?  He's a fatso.  He's not enourmous, though.  My mom?  Well, she's not Ellen DeGeneres, in a way, to me.  She's also not American..

I find it stupid..

..or nonsensical the idea that I do something and you think it connects to my parents

Problem

Ha Ha laugh all you want but it's actually not pleasant.  Come on, just say she does it as a punishment.  That's no good reason.  That means she doesn't have anything good to do.  That might sound rude, but it's along the lines of what I can think.  It just hurts me, I wanted to see her like practically live each day.  I shouldn't be punished.  This is like her show being taken off.  She acted sympathetic @ that downset as a possibility.  She doesn't have to.  I mean, I shouldn't be punished and it's not okay.  So, how does that work out?  Why wait?

Nevermind.. :|

Problem

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Problem

Sorry I got mad, but is Ellen DeGeneres not filming as live just because I went to school last semester?  What kind of a response do I expect to get for a question like that?  She thinks it's funny, but I don't.  It was a little boring.  I am not in school now, and it's not good for anyone, in particular.  I keep up even on Twitter and Facebook.

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